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how can you expect me to be friends with you when the inside of my mouth is crusted over with scabs from the effort it takes not to say those three words you never want to hear from me again? -“i love you” / “i hate you”.

Apakah semua orang tau jika malam tak lagi terang. Malam kini menertawakanmu dengan bingar. Padahal pada malam biasanya kusematkan harapan rehat karena badan ini memikul beban berat. Satu kali... Dua kali ... Tiga kali, malam memakan jiwaku lumat. Ingin kubuka genggaman ini menyerah pada pekat, hingga malam kudengar menangis, meratap. " Hai hidup, kini Aku tak lagi terang" Source : www.unsplash.com

I thought I deserve to be happy too, but happiness never come. I thought I have forgotten about you, but the memory stays. I am tired, I want to stop. Please stop, but you already moved. And here I am, lying like a fool.. Source : www.unsplash.com Please listen to : Letting Go by One Ok Rock!

Right now it's kind of hard for me to read. Actually I’ve bought several books on my Kindle : some poetry books & some novels. However because of my new responsibility @ works, I'd often work late, and feel so tired when I come home, and rather spend my time on social media (Instagram, twitter, or  Youtube) that don’t require so much thinking with my brain. But then, after hours of browsing I'd feel regret because I waste so much time unproductively like that... I really want to get back to reading mode again as soon as possible... So... Wish me luck... Source : www.unsplash.com