ivorana

 She asked me,  "How did you move on? It's really hard for me. And it really hurts". I gather my thought for a while, letting some 8 years-flashbacks running thru my head, and exhale , "I once did everything in my power to save myself from drowning unnecessarily. Will you do the same, to save yours?". I believe that it's not running away, that it's merely the act of changing priority on loving and caring my self more. And I'm not looking back.

Source : Unsplash My friends and I were talking about changes that happened in our life in this past year (yes, i mean 2020). With all that happened around us, specially during quarantine period, where we have to stay at our room all day everyday. It came to the moment to She asked me, "how can you survive quarantine in Jakarta? I could not handle it,  that's why i sped up my move back to home." To that question my only answer was because i'm comfortable enough with my self, anywhere.. Quarantine for me is 70% blessing, 30% torture (coz i miss traveling duh lol).. "I guess the city is never a home for me", she continued.. I forget what i told her after that, but her words baffles me till now. It makes me think, We practically grew up here, since college and work for almost 5 years here, how could this place is not a home for her?  Because it is home for me, i guess.. Well, this city really is a city for an ambitious dreamer like me, it offers me hope, story,...

If anyone ask, how could I survive college, 1,333 km from home, new environment new place new responsibility. It felt hard and new and exciting, but of course at the same time I felt pressure, anxious and worried. The one thing that kept me sane was my high school friends, who miraculously continue their college in the same city and around, Depok - Jakarta.  During college time, we hung out pretty much every weekend. We spent national holidays together, explored new places in the big city, and generally just being weird together. We also joined to alumni group with seniors and juniors from high school, because we're from boarding school so we also had many activities together as community. All of this really helped me surviving college. 😂 Spending time with them really gave me a peace of mind, a comfort zone, a safe zone to speak Minang and be moody as hell :) After college, we keep the tradition alive, hang out whenever we can and it includes traveling together. So many stories, ...