Doubts

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I always doubt my self.
I always doubt i can not do something as good as everyone's expectations.
I always doubt whether i say the right things to people.
and I always doubt that i am truly happy now.

Have you ever felt it?
These endless doubts (?)
These blocks that i created myself, wishing to please everyone, yet end up hurting alone?

Now i feel sorry for me.
I'm trying to accept that I will never make everyone happy.
That life continues even if i protest furiously.
So now I'll make it peace, and just let it be.


Recommendation Song :
"Don't be So Hard on Your Self" - by Jess Glynne


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