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I always envy people who can commit to do something for others. Commitment to bring happiness to not only to your only being, but also for other human, a significant other. Like how can that possible? A well being, not to mention happiness is something you have to pursue with your own hard effort. Will you grant it for others? If you ask me, i'll say no absolutely. But unfortunately, society said it's all possible. That i'm the one who is being unreasonable. Even if the fact that i just commit to myself too much, and that there's still no room for another priority than me. I repeat and repeat and repeat, i still can only sit solo. But again, what is the easiest thing that has been done by homo sapiens? Lying to themselves.

I have complained in twitter, @raovinahaq if you want to follow me :), that i'm beyond tired of my demanding schedules at work. May be you can also relate to it. You know, being at office since 8 am to 8 pm, every day, 5 days a week. And please don't think that it all stops at weekend. No it's not. In this enhance technology era with communication tools are just one click away, all work related is still discussed in group chat, in weekend. And so, your life is basically all about work. I don't think it's healthy and when i'm almost at the end of my edge, i found this particular twitter account @pinotski . Pinotski and his wife are an influencer in social media and also a great and phenomenal illustrator, they work with art and it's beautifully done. Just check it out in their account, twitter or instagram. They believe that everyone can draw, even though it's hard to be applied to me because i am a human being with no ability to draw in whatsoever. B...

I remember I am the one who always say "I'll always be with you" "I got your back" Now that I realize Will you do the same? Will you be there for me too? You won't, will you.

I always doubt my self. I always doubt i can not do something as good as everyone's expectations. I always doubt whether i say the right things to people. and I always doubt that i am truly happy now. Have you ever felt it? These endless doubts (?) These blocks that i created myself, wishing to please everyone, yet end up hurting alone? Now i feel sorry for me. I'm trying to accept that I will never make everyone happy. That life continues even if i protest furiously. So now I'll make it peace, and just let it be. Recommendation Song : "Don't be So Hard on Your Self" - by Jess Glynne

dalam dua spektrum warna yang berbeda aku adalah gradasi di tengah-tengah tidak tua dan tidak bijaksana jika suara terbagi atas benar dan salah maka aku adalah perkara abu-abu tidak keras dan gamang dunia membagi diri dalam hidup dan mati orang bilang berada diantaranya adalah seperti mimpi tapi aku lebih tau utuh saat hidup ku mati, mimpi ku terus jatuh

Jadi bulan april ini ada dua activity yang bikin gue super excited, salah satunya adalah konser nya The Script!!  Udah beli tiketnya The Script jauh jauh hari, tepatnya sejak bulan Januari 2018 kemarin.. Saking jauh banget jarak beli tiket ke konsernya, ada masa-masa gue lupa konser nya kapan wkwk..  Konser kali ini gue berhasil mendapatkan tiket Golden Priority untuk The Script, which means itu rombongan paling depan dan berdiri. Biasanya tuh gue pasti keabisan mulu kalau ngincer paling depan, kayak di Konser nya GD dan Taeyang.  Mulai bulan Januari gue udah mulai tuh bikin playlist nya The Script di Spotify, ngafalin lagu-lagu yang akan mereka bawain di tour  tahun ini. Walaupun excited, gue juga masih rada rada khawatir nih, karena ga tau kenapa lagi lumayan musim beberapa konser itu malah batal diadain di Indonesia. Misalnya konser Ed Sheeran, yang sampai sekarang masih bikin gue rada sakit hati, yang batal karena Ed nya kecelakaan. Atau konsernya Paramore, y...

Haihaihai! Mau share nih cerita gue berburu di sarang nya Big Bad Wolf 2018 (BBW 2018)..! Ini pengalaman kedua gue main di BBW. Tahun lalu, gue juga ikutan BBW, dan kalap beli banyak banget buku, total nya sekitar 30 buku.. Nah, merasa sudah berpengalaman nge-BBW-an tahun lalu, gue *merasa* jadi udah tau How-To nya nih. Persiapan nge-BBW gue yang pertama adalah nyari temen untuk berburu bareng :) Karena partner gue tahun lalu, Vivbeb memutuskan untuk ga join dulu, akhirnya gue mencari partner yang baru. Dalam waktu singkat gue pun berhasil menggaet Chu ...! Mendekati hari keberangkatan, Pikti & Sri Ok pu akhirnya join :) Setelah diskusi, kita pun memutuskan untuk berangkat tanggal 30 Maret, atau satu hari setelah BBW 2018 resmi dibuka. Rencananya sih mau ambisius gitu dan mau nya hunting jam 3 pagi. Karena kita pikir kalau siang atau sore pasti rame banget tuh antrinnya nantii.. Tapi rencana hanya rencana wkwkwkwk Karena hari itu hari Jumat dan lagi long weekend, kayakn...