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Roger Starnes Sr via Unsplash 17 Maret 2021 kemarin jadi anniversary 1 tahun gue WFH. Ga terasa udah lebih dari satu tahun aja kita berjuang melawan pandemi Covid-19 ini.  Disini gue mau cerita pengalaman vaksin di Istora Senayan kemarin yaaa. Karena privilige dari kantor, gue bisa dapet vaksin Covid-19; Vaksin Sinovac, dimana vaksin pertama gue itu tanggal 25 Maret 2021, dan vaksin kedua tanggal 22 April 2021.  Disclaimer : pengalaman ini bisa jadi berbeda di lokasi Vaksinasi Covid-19 lainnya 1. Before Vaksin  Dapet pengumuman satu hari sebelumnya via email kantor dan SMS, undangan untuk hadir vaksin Covid pertama di Istora Senayan. Setelah dapet undangan ini, langsung deg-degan sii. Penyebab degdegan nya yaa banyak, pertama karena bakalan keluar rumah dan ketemu banyak orang di Istora (karena sebelum2 nya gue udah dapet foto2 yang di share temen2 yang udah vaksin duluan, dan kondisi nya rame banget orang2 di Istora), terus takut efek samping nya gimana gimana. Tapi akhi...

 She asked me,  "How did you move on? It's really hard for me. And it really hurts". I gather my thought for a while, letting some 8 years-flashbacks running thru my head, and exhale , "I once did everything in my power to save myself from drowning unnecessarily. Will you do the same, to save yours?". I believe that it's not running away, that it's merely the act of changing priority on loving and caring my self more. And I'm not looking back.

Source : Unsplash My friends and I were talking about changes that happened in our life in this past year (yes, i mean 2020). With all that happened around us, specially during quarantine period, where we have to stay at our room all day everyday. It came to the moment to She asked me, "how can you survive quarantine in Jakarta? I could not handle it,  that's why i sped up my move back to home." To that question my only answer was because i'm comfortable enough with my self, anywhere.. Quarantine for me is 70% blessing, 30% torture (coz i miss traveling duh lol).. "I guess the city is never a home for me", she continued.. I forget what i told her after that, but her words baffles me till now. It makes me think, We practically grew up here, since college and work for almost 5 years here, how could this place is not a home for her?  Because it is home for me, i guess.. Well, this city really is a city for an ambitious dreamer like me, it offers me hope, story,...

Here we go again.... 2020 has passed us by, like poof, no trace.. I don't think i actually lived in 2020, like 2020 just passed in front of my eyes 😂 BUT, 2020 ended couple days ago, and it's time to look back to my GoodReads Challenge..  So in 2020, i optimistically set the goal of number of books that i would read in total = 36 books. Well, I actually achieved it.. Uyeeaay.. I tried really hard to be consistent by finishing 3 books a month in 2020,  if it's a song, it will be "Jatuh bangun aku mengejarmu". I consumed books in so many channels, eBook with different sources; Kindle and iPusnas apps, audio book from ;YouTube, Spotify, Blinkist, and of course the hardcopy book. I also used multiple devices from my phone, iPad, and Mac. To summarize, it IS HARD lol 😂 2020 was an exciting years though for me as a hard-core Andrea Hirata fan, because he released Guru Aini and some unedited version of his previous books. For me, Guru Aini is really awesome copy, as it...

If anyone ask, how could I survive college, 1,333 km from home, new environment new place new responsibility. It felt hard and new and exciting, but of course at the same time I felt pressure, anxious and worried. The one thing that kept me sane was my high school friends, who miraculously continue their college in the same city and around, Depok - Jakarta.  During college time, we hung out pretty much every weekend. We spent national holidays together, explored new places in the big city, and generally just being weird together. We also joined to alumni group with seniors and juniors from high school, because we're from boarding school so we also had many activities together as community. All of this really helped me surviving college. 😂 Spending time with them really gave me a peace of mind, a comfort zone, a safe zone to speak Minang and be moody as hell :) After college, we keep the tradition alive, hang out whenever we can and it includes traveling together. So many stories, ...

 I'd like to share a quote from a book titled "300 Things I Hope" by Iain S. Thomas. The book is so cute, with literally 300 things wished by the author for the reader. And this one below, hit me on another level. I also hope it can resonate with you 😊

Since We're not advised to travel yet, I decided to moved out from my old place and start fresh in a new place 👀 You know, moving places has the same sensation with travelling. Or so i told my sister 😅 It's been a year, since i first moved to an Apt in South Jakarta. I decided to not extend my contract and move out. From the second week of Aug-20, I started to look for potential places, thinking about what I have right now, finding of what i don't want to compromise in a new place. After 2 weeks of visiting several places, I finally found a perfect place in my condition. Therefore, I proceed to move out couple days ago, Aug 29th 2020. Couple things I'd like to mention in my new place is that, with lower price i actually get same facility (plus minus in couple things but minor) here. However I get the fundamental things here (new place), which are privacy and safety. Settling in this new place, I hope to start fresh here, with more clarity of myself, better mental cond...

Source : Matt Ridley via Unsplash Jadi belakangan ini, during - after lebaran until today, mood udah seperti bukit Barisan, naik turun tidak karuan. Beberapa hari penuh semangat dan harapan, produktif dan ceria. Tapi di hari lain gloomy, sendu, emosional, selalu di batas akhir pokoknya, di ujung kesedihan atau di puncak kemarahan. Kalau udah super negatif seperti itu, after effect nya pasti selalu merasa bersalah. Dapet privilige untuk WFH dengan gaji tetap ada, makan minum tempat tinggal cukup, kayak apa lagi yang kurang gitu malu sama tenaga kesehatan di luar sana. Sampai akhirnya, ngeliat postingan psikolog namanya dr. Julie Smith via Tiktok (yess I’m a Tiktok user yall), dan video dr. Daniel Amen di Youtube (psikolog nya Justin Bieber nih), yang kasih pencerahan kalau sebenarnya perasaan galau dan susah kita selama karantina itu sangat wajar dan valid, dan kita ga boleh terlalu keras sama diri sendiri, biarkan aja perasaan itu ada, ackowledge it. Mereka juga share kalau yang kita ...

Source : Pepper Besides rewatching Friends for 1000th times, or Brooklyn 99 or Modern Family, lately i also watch several series that accidentally have similar theme : Food! It kinda different with what my colleagues watch, that's around K-Drama, so famous in Netflix nowadays like Crash Landing On You (CLOY), The King, or Hospital Playlist.  It's not that i hate K-drama, it's just that what's popular now is not the genre i need to watch in the moment. In other words, i can not afford the emotional burden watching life problems stretched by dozens of episodes in K-Drama, it's too much for me in this quarantine mode. There comes the Food series available on Netflix. Wait, does this series recommendation is like a cooking show filled with unrealistic recipes? Because I mentioned above that I kinda avoid drama.. Well not really, this series have the slice of life stories too, but it's more like short one, every episode  offer different problems and faster resolution...

Meskipun kantor gue Alhamdulillah masih bisa WFH, sampai batas waktu yang belum di tentukan, tapi gue tetap mulai mempersiapkan diri jika nanti harus masuk kantor lagi, dengan wabah Corona yang masih belum ada Vaksinnya. Source Jernih.co Pasti sudah familiar dengan ilustrasi di atas. Image ini mungkin juga udah di blast diberbagai grup pertemenan. Berikut gue share persiapan new normal starter pack gue dalam beberapa bagian : a. External Part     1. Jaket/Outer : melindungi pakaian utama kita. Setelah sampai kantor bisa dilepas, lalu digantung di area yang terpapar sinar matahari intens agar virus dan bakteri nya mati, atau disemprot cairan desinfektan secukupnya.     2. Helm : karena gue pengguna Go-ride, maka gue effort beli helm sendiri. Agar tidak bergantian penggunaannya dengan orang asing. Beli nya yang murah meriah aja, yang penting SNI.     3. Masker : ini yang paling penting kudu wajib ya, masker. Ga perlu penjelasan lebih lanjut.     ...

Tomorrow is Monday and you may guess that every sunday evening I will certainly always have anxious to face Monday in couple hours. And lately it become worse because of my laptop that i use for work. I am trusted, well all of employee, with a laptop that supposed to support all my work for the company. Now i am holding an HP Elitebook 820 G4 with Intelcore i5 7th Gen. I’m using it for almost a year, but its performance deteriorate faster than my Order in Tokped. Couple months ago, before WFH era, I had a mental breakdown at office, because the slide that i already create, compiled from all team, and revised hundreds times, suddenly disappear. It’s 4pm and must be submitted to my GM in an hour. I panicked, burst to tears, until my colleague recover the file for me. I don’t know how, because i’m literally on my edge, but it somehow reappeared. Then last week, the laptop crash again, always in the moment of crisis. If a hero always Rise in the moment of crisis, well i can say ...

Welcome to New  Normal :) It's June 3rd 2020, and it will be my 2.5 months working from home (WFH). My company started the WFH policy since March 17th and it may be ended on Jun 10th 😔 Source : Unsplash I don't want to talk about my WFH experience right now because as the title showed above, i'll share my Movie & Series recommendation that i (re)watched recently. 1. Sex and The City movie (#1 & #2) So I re-watched this movie a few days ago and it somehow gave me new perspective. When i watched it the first time may be as a little or young girl, all i can grasped was that relationship is hard really and i saw that as something that happen only in movie or maybe to someone else but me.. Because hey that's not MY problem right, my problem was the next exam coming up. But watching it recently as 20-something years old woman, working full time 8 12 hours a day 5 days a week, I feel i can relate to some of the topic in the scenes, if not mo...

Wow, i can't believe my first post of the year 2020 is on Feb :'') I feel sorry for my self 😰 Well, for this first post i'd like to share my Goodreads Reading Challenge. On 2019, I've shared my goal to read 24 Books. By December 2019, I've read 25 books, with achievement by target reached 104%, and YoY Growth +108%. The highlight of my 2019 reading , beside the fact that i achieved my target, was finally i completed the series of The Secrets of The Immortal Nicholas Flamel, after temporarily stopped since 4 years ago while i was still in college :'') My Goodreads Account This year, i would like to step up my reading target to 36 books. For me personally, this target is kinda scary because my reading speed is lower since i got older and higher Minus >.< But I will try harder to achieve this year target too.. Moreover, this year i already got a boosting spirit by Andrea Hirata with his book Guru Aini . I think it's the most prod...

Hey, I want to share some behind the scene stories of Transformation Rap Challenge 2019 that I Joined. First , what is Transformation Rap challenge 2019? It actually is a challenge to ,cover or lipsync a rap music video that is first sung by our BOD ... The song created and composed by a well known artist <a rapper> , and it's so catchy that everyone loves it!!! this challenge is participated by Every team of my office, from HQ to regional level. My team is also excited to be part of it, and i get the honor to be part of the creative team. So after the challenge was broadcasted to all employee, my boss told us that we have to participate in this challenge. But first we have to decide whether to cover or Just lipsync the song .<we have to submit a video>. After some discussion , we decide to cover the song, because my team have so many talents to be wasted away if we just lipsync. After the decision to cover the song is made, we try to focus to 2 main materials...

how can you expect me to be friends with you when the inside of my mouth is crusted over with scabs from the effort it takes not to say those three words you never want to hear from me again? -“i love you” / “i hate you”.

Apakah semua orang tau jika malam tak lagi terang. Malam kini menertawakanmu dengan bingar. Padahal pada malam biasanya kusematkan harapan rehat karena badan ini memikul beban berat. Satu kali... Dua kali ... Tiga kali, malam memakan jiwaku lumat. Ingin kubuka genggaman ini menyerah pada pekat, hingga malam kudengar menangis, meratap. " Hai hidup, kini Aku tak lagi terang" Source : www.unsplash.com

I thought I deserve to be happy too, but happiness never come. I thought I have forgotten about you, but the memory stays. I am tired, I want to stop. Please stop, but you already moved. And here I am, lying like a fool.. Source : www.unsplash.com Please listen to : Letting Go by One Ok Rock!

Right now it's kind of hard for me to read. Actually I’ve bought several books on my Kindle : some poetry books & some novels. However because of my new responsibility @ works, I'd often work late, and feel so tired when I come home, and rather spend my time on social media (Instagram, twitter, or  Youtube) that don’t require so much thinking with my brain. But then, after hours of browsing I'd feel regret because I waste so much time unproductively like that... I really want to get back to reading mode again as soon as possible... So... Wish me luck... Source : www.unsplash.com

It's been quite some times since i last read my last book.. Earlier this year i committed to read 24 books this year, its average is 2 books a month. Even though i already read 13 books, so it remains 11 books left and i still have 6 months, i still feel left behind..  Come to think of it, these days i spend the evenings with Netflix.. I have finished Designated Survivors (3 seasons), How to get away with murder (4 seasons, only 4 seasons available in Netflix Indonesia), currently watching Voice 3, Orange is the new black, and some Movies Netflix originals.. I'll be back to book for now though..

Hey, it's been long since my last post here.. I'd like to share my new journey that officially started on June 1st 2019. Like other companies, there has been regular rotation to freshen up the organisation, this year it's the company i work for. Actually the rotation has already planned by the management from last year, however the implementation is rolling-out parallel, starting last may. Right to the smallest part of the company, which is me and my colleague in the same level.. So, the big news came on May 31st 2019. The fates of hundreds people was distributed that day. You don't know where destiny would bring you. You didn't know on what team and division you would end up with, let alone what will your duty would be.. I was soo stressed by this. I straight up stay awoke for 21 hours D-1 before the announcement. And then the announcement came, by mail.. There were not many people in the office that day, because most of them already off for Lebaran.. I reme...