19 years old

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"Bingung is only 19 years old.. Nineteen is the age to make mistakes.. You will make lots of mistakes, and you should make mistakes at that age.. You have to go through everything that you should at your age in order to get old properly.. The most important thing is not the fact that you made a mistake, but that you realize your mistakes and gain courage to fix your mistakes.." 
Tae-Hwang Tae-Hu Mama, in Goong ( Princess Hours )
I am not officially 19 years old, actually ; while i'm writing this post, i am 18 years, 6 months, 1 day old..
but, just allow me to say I'm on going to be 19.
Tae-Hwang Tae-Hu Mama's sentences make me think a lot.....

is it really ok if i do some mistakes?
am i walking in the right path?
what will people think if i make mistakes?
how can i know, is it mistake or not, what is the standard?
how to fix what  i've ruined?

it makes me confused and a lil bit frustration..
because not all of them can understand, because not all of them can accept nor know the reason of the hidden measures behind those mistakes..

it makes me suffocate..




_does life only about pleasure others' expectation? is that the way not to make any mistake?_

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